*i started this blog yesterday, but then i took nyquil and was incapacitated before i could finish lol*
before i start, let me say that i feel like poo poo, so if this sounds depressing, it's really not. i'm just kinda blahhh.
wellll, today was interesting.
started off with me waking up to my director's wife, tiffany, leaving a message on my house phone saying, "LEANNAAAA!!! LEANNA! ARE YOU THERE??? LEANNA!!!" it was 9:00. i thought i was given the day off to take care of car stuff, but apparently i misunderstood and i was only supposed to take time off whenever the car was going to be towed, which wasn't until later this afternoon (didn't know that part either- when they would be there to tow it) so i had to get ready REALLY quick and slaus came to pick me up.
when we got to the church, ric told us to follow him in our cars. we ended up at the cemetary!!!!! creeeppyyy! ric told us to get our journals and walk around the gravesites and if we saw any epitaphs that were interesting to us, to write them down. there were several that caught my eye, but a few faves were:
-to my lady: the sweetest, kindest, most loving mother and wife in the world. Beautiful in life, beautiful in death. we will always love her.
-budded on earth to bloom in heaven (the baby died at 3 days old)
-gone fishing (haha!)
-none knew thee but to love thee
-her children arise up and call her blessed (prov. 31)
-love is neverending
-beloved daddy
and then we all met back with ric after walking around the cemetary a while. we shared some of what we had, and then he said all of the people buried here have great things written about them because their family will choose to remember the good about them, but someone else may walk by their grave and remember them by somehting else. maybe something not so good. maybe a secret, or something that person did, or said. maybe someone will walk by and say, "i had an affair with him." or "she was really the one who killed her husband." then we talked about the story of joseph in the bible. and how potiphar's wife lied to her husband, the king, saying that joseph was trying to seduce her, when in fact, she was the one trying to seduce him, but was having serious denial issues about the fact that he rejected her. and to this day, we don't know potiphar's wife's name. she is known by her lie.
what will we be remembered for?
what will people say when they walk by our tombstones? are there skeletons in our closets that keep people from recognizing us as children of God?
then we took time to write down all of the things in our life that we have to change in order for people to see us as children of God, and not by that sin.
here are some of mine:
lust
arrogance
selfishness
bossiness (if that's even a word haha)
jealousy
always wanting the spotlight
not communicating with friends and family as much as i should
insecurity
lies
being judgemental
in romans 12:1, it says we are to be "living sacrifices". what that means, is daily, we have to die to our sinful ways and give ourselves up at the disposal of the king. we have to conform to his way and not our's. i have to die to the things listed above daily, hourly, minutely haha.
i want to be like the christians they talked about in antioch. that was the first time the word "christian" was used. they described paul and barnabus as being christ-like. they were so different from anyone else they had ever encountered. that's how i wanna be. not the typical christian that everybody has in their mind. i wanna blow people away with my love and compassion for them. people aren't used to being loved. not really, anyway. i'm here to change that!
lovin you,
lovin life,
lovin jesus,
leanna
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
yay for first blog!!
So yea. to start off, i have told most people that i am in an internship through my church, Destiny Christian Center, in prattville, al. http://www.destinycc.com/ you can check out our church there. :)
i'm up there all week. literally. we do intern stuff mon through fri 8 to 5, then i work at the daycare there all day fri, then we attend all four services on the weekend, including a sat night.
it's a nonstop operation, but i love it. someone once told me "the world is run by tired men and women".
but anyway, my family suggested i start a blog to let everyone know what i'm doing in the internship and my progress and whatnot. so... here goes!
since i've been in for 3 weeks already, let me catch everyone up to speed:
-i live with the praise and worship leader, angie brening and her husband, Keith, daughter alyssa, sons isaac and nathan, dog rylee, and several fish. it couldn't be a better fit. i love them completely. not long after i moved in, the subject of my lack of a middle name came up in conversation somehow. so angie decided to give me the name Estelle, meaning the star. and then it was taken farther when we all met the entire staff on our first day and discovered i'm the oldest intern, so i'm now lovingly known as "granny estelle." :)
-we memorize 2 scriptures a week, so i'll be updating that prob everyday because it will keep it fresh on my mind haha. last week was 2 corinthians 5:17 and galatians 2:20. this week is romans 12:1, and john 14:21. the last 2 focus on obedience to christ.
-there are 3 other interns. 2 of them first years like me (clifford and slaus), and 1 is a second year (cambria).
`ok, that's all of the stuff i can think of, there's lots more, but i'll prob just blurt it out as it comes.
today, in prayer time, i started really diggin into wondering where god would place me after the internship, then out of nowhere, i asked god to help me get rid of my trust issues. being burned in the past several times, i'm not a person that easily trusts. and god started to mess with me about myself. he said that i tend to feel so insignificant that i think i can be forgotten. and that's where my jealousy and anger stem from- my insecurity. and he said until i can see what i'm really worth, what i look like to him, then i can't move on to receive what god will have for me after the internship. so yea, i'll be working on the trust thing with a PASSION because i so wanna know what i'm supposed to do with my life, so i have to get through this first.
`then we had staff meeting and learned about how a good leader needs to delegate. there's no point in thinking you should do everything just because you can do it better and quicker (even if you can!). you have to give people a voice, a place to stand in the project, a sense of purpose. and if you keep taking all of the control, you're overlooking all of the possible gems that are inside of people by denying them a chance to shine. good stuff.
`then we had creative meeting, and we had to write a skit for our next sermon series, which is called "Socialitis", a disease triggered by TOO MUCH FACEBOOK! haha, so we wrote a skit that was inspired by a video we saw all about people interacting face to face the same way they would on facebook. it's hilarious. if we video it, i'll send the link.
`then slaus (her name is actually sarah slauson, but slaus is just way cooler) and i drove to wetumpka to drop off my baby, the jetta at dad's house. he gave me the buick park avenue, who i have respectfully named lady marmalade, and she respectfully quit on me about a week ago. guess she doesn't like the name.
`when we came back into town, we were good little girls and walked/jogged a little over a mile. we started our healthier lifestyle yesterday. then we came back home and ate soup. then i had scrambled eggs with melted cheese hehe. BUT i haven't had a single carbonated drink today! water and tea. i refuse to give up sweet tea. i have to have ONE vice. c'mon!
and then i made a new cd for us to listen to in prayer time. it rawks.
`on a sad note, one of our interns was asked to leave the internship last night. i miss him a lot and am deeply saddened that he has to leave. it was a matter of rules and he just couldn't do it anymore. i know that god would've done great things in him, and still can, but it always hurts to see people lose opportunities. i'll keep him in prayer and hope that he continues to grow instead of running away.
`from the carwash fundraiser, where i was sponsored to raise money for our trip we're taking in january, because of my awesome friends and family, i raised 247 dollars just from that fundraiser! that's mroe than half of my trip paid for! thank you all so much!!
`well i'm going to hit the hay now
loves.
romans 12:1 therefore, i urge you, brothers, in view of god's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to god-this is your spiritual act of worship.
;)
i'm up there all week. literally. we do intern stuff mon through fri 8 to 5, then i work at the daycare there all day fri, then we attend all four services on the weekend, including a sat night.
it's a nonstop operation, but i love it. someone once told me "the world is run by tired men and women".
but anyway, my family suggested i start a blog to let everyone know what i'm doing in the internship and my progress and whatnot. so... here goes!
since i've been in for 3 weeks already, let me catch everyone up to speed:
-i live with the praise and worship leader, angie brening and her husband, Keith, daughter alyssa, sons isaac and nathan, dog rylee, and several fish. it couldn't be a better fit. i love them completely. not long after i moved in, the subject of my lack of a middle name came up in conversation somehow. so angie decided to give me the name Estelle, meaning the star. and then it was taken farther when we all met the entire staff on our first day and discovered i'm the oldest intern, so i'm now lovingly known as "granny estelle." :)
-we memorize 2 scriptures a week, so i'll be updating that prob everyday because it will keep it fresh on my mind haha. last week was 2 corinthians 5:17 and galatians 2:20. this week is romans 12:1, and john 14:21. the last 2 focus on obedience to christ.
-there are 3 other interns. 2 of them first years like me (clifford and slaus), and 1 is a second year (cambria).
`ok, that's all of the stuff i can think of, there's lots more, but i'll prob just blurt it out as it comes.
today, in prayer time, i started really diggin into wondering where god would place me after the internship, then out of nowhere, i asked god to help me get rid of my trust issues. being burned in the past several times, i'm not a person that easily trusts. and god started to mess with me about myself. he said that i tend to feel so insignificant that i think i can be forgotten. and that's where my jealousy and anger stem from- my insecurity. and he said until i can see what i'm really worth, what i look like to him, then i can't move on to receive what god will have for me after the internship. so yea, i'll be working on the trust thing with a PASSION because i so wanna know what i'm supposed to do with my life, so i have to get through this first.
`then we had staff meeting and learned about how a good leader needs to delegate. there's no point in thinking you should do everything just because you can do it better and quicker (even if you can!). you have to give people a voice, a place to stand in the project, a sense of purpose. and if you keep taking all of the control, you're overlooking all of the possible gems that are inside of people by denying them a chance to shine. good stuff.
`then we had creative meeting, and we had to write a skit for our next sermon series, which is called "Socialitis", a disease triggered by TOO MUCH FACEBOOK! haha, so we wrote a skit that was inspired by a video we saw all about people interacting face to face the same way they would on facebook. it's hilarious. if we video it, i'll send the link.
`then slaus (her name is actually sarah slauson, but slaus is just way cooler) and i drove to wetumpka to drop off my baby, the jetta at dad's house. he gave me the buick park avenue, who i have respectfully named lady marmalade, and she respectfully quit on me about a week ago. guess she doesn't like the name.
`when we came back into town, we were good little girls and walked/jogged a little over a mile. we started our healthier lifestyle yesterday. then we came back home and ate soup. then i had scrambled eggs with melted cheese hehe. BUT i haven't had a single carbonated drink today! water and tea. i refuse to give up sweet tea. i have to have ONE vice. c'mon!
and then i made a new cd for us to listen to in prayer time. it rawks.
`on a sad note, one of our interns was asked to leave the internship last night. i miss him a lot and am deeply saddened that he has to leave. it was a matter of rules and he just couldn't do it anymore. i know that god would've done great things in him, and still can, but it always hurts to see people lose opportunities. i'll keep him in prayer and hope that he continues to grow instead of running away.
`from the carwash fundraiser, where i was sponsored to raise money for our trip we're taking in january, because of my awesome friends and family, i raised 247 dollars just from that fundraiser! that's mroe than half of my trip paid for! thank you all so much!!
`well i'm going to hit the hay now
loves.
romans 12:1 therefore, i urge you, brothers, in view of god's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to god-this is your spiritual act of worship.
;)
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